in case some of u didnt realise ive deleted this blog to form a new one to gain xtra privacy but the move juz makes matter worst... i decide to return here its not worth it anyway im just merely running away...
last nite
omg wat was i thinking... i couldnt think straight ive gone insane at that time... ive made the biggest mistake... i couldnt help but feeling guilty the whole night i couldnt sleep peacefuly even when i manage to sleep i get nightmares of the incident...
i dun have much close frenz and i dunwan to bother them anyway they have their own problems to bother so i decide to talk to daddy... ive told him everything that has happen... never in my life i shared my tears with my dad... he's there for me even when i had to call him up when he was bz working
anyways he knew about it b4 hand... he heard us quarelling in the phone when u dilled his no. and he recorded it... i couldnt stop hearing the recordings over n over again
bt i am scared he ask me alot of questions i just couldnt answer them....
physically i can take anything bt emotionally im weak... u can ram me over with ur bike i swear ill survive but if u jus pinch my fragile heart my mind could go haywire jus like last night...
but dear i promise i will pay every single cents of the damage that had been done dun worry i know its purely my fault the whole night was my fault... right now i just couldnt pick up the phone to call u... i will call u once im ready n ill settle the payments...
right now as u say there are more important things to bother...ive yet to hand up my assignments ive not finish my case-study which is due this week and also my skills that has not been achieve.. gerl u need to concentrate on ur studies now only 6 weeks left till graduation...
but im not sure if i can go on like this... my dear god help me go trough life give me the strength to carry on
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