how is it that my friends are turning their backs on me. It hurts when the people whom i love are being fake. My parents told me in my teenage years friends leave and the ones who will hold on to you will be your family. As i grow and i have grown, (in my mid 20s now) i learnt that it is true after all. It hurts to know the people whom you thought are the ones who will be there to see you grow smile succeed just..........be nasty.

Maybe i get too sensitive over small matters and i just hold on a fake smile, after all they are still there when i needed them. But i guess thats isn't enough. I felt that what ive hold on all these years is nothing.

Its ok i tell myself every single night. Ill never stop loving the girls because i do and i always try my best to make them happy even though i never show even if i have to defy my bf just to please them and i love my bf just as much but the girls are just harder. But now f*** it i know i have my own rights and no one can ever tell someone else you are nothing. I do what i think makes me happy and i shan't bother what others even my closest friends thinks. After all my happiness and success is in my own hands and i believe i am halfway there.